Michelle Phan ♥

I grew up watching Michelle Phan's videos. I went to an all girls school for 11 years of my life (age 7~18), so I didn't care much on my looks back then. I mean, I started watching her videos in year 2007 (age 13), when puberty just hit, and that was how I developed and "new" me since then. 

Growing up, I used to be called as the "ugly duckling" because my skin was dark and my mom always kept my hair super short. Everytime when I played Play House with my friends during elementary school, they would tell me to take the male role. (I cried once because I hate to be the guy every single time!!) I had also experienced the time when people always thought I was a boy. 

This is me. (2006 - present)

Back then, I absolutely hated going out to parties because everyone would tell me I'm ugly. Maybe that was why I didn't like to smile and I would always pull a shitty face —which, I thought was so COOL back then— which in actuality, I only looked like someone owed me money. LOL!!! Because I had no self confidence, I enjoyed staying at home alone with my MP3 player, singing songs and recording it, and sit in front of the computer (with bad internet connection) and spend most of my time on Youtube. 

One night, I stumbled upon a tutorial video about eyeliners —you guessed it, it was Michelle's "Eyeliner Tutorial" posted in Oct 25, 2007— and I was totally amazed by the "sorcery" of makeup!! 

That was how I started to learn so much from this big sister Michelle Phan ♥ Thank you for all the inspiration!!